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Friday, August 31, 2007

well..recently seldom online ler..cz he back ipoh dy...wat can i said for now??jz be with him 2 week..he wan to leave me n back hometown...so..d moment tat he come ipoh..i quite appreciate it..even wan me to lie my family n said got show go out n stay 1 nite..2 nite..i don care...cz i love him..

erm..dis few day oso din blog..don noe ler..just feel useless recently..ya..im just useless..my mother cal me to learn somthing for myself..i go n ask make up thing..facial..well , quite exp la..cz those course n skool r pro ma....wat to do?after i ask..mother was cal me today..she ask me to learn saloon..but..d point is. learn thing is me..should't i choose myself??think it badly...was argue with her today..scold her somore..after d phone..i jz feel so mad..gonna send a msg tat scold her..but lucky d phone cant send out thing..got some prob stuck at there..think it deeply..i change another msg dy..NOT SCOLD..BUT JUST TELL..change d way tat i talk..cz whn i think it deeply i noe tat..she jz wan me good...she suffer oso...but pls~ DO STAND ON MY SIDE OSO

just back from sing k..he wan to leave me AGAIN tomolo ler..dis time d most feel bu she de is him...he drink quite alot today..n i sing alot...when 3 am i said wan to back..he drunk dy..-.- so freaking damm damm worry him!! i drive d car back home..he cant even wake up..just keep vomit thre..no idea..i just can cal chun gor gor bring him n help me take care of him..not i don wan to care him..i go out for 3 day ler cz of him..i don wan let my family felt tat afer i got dis bf i change bcome like tat..somore i cant bring him back home..i don wan my family feel tat he is those person like to drink alot..i don wan his image on my family heart jz spoill! cz i wan stay long lasting with him...! i love him r!! he just now vomit thn punch d car hardly.! his attitude scare me again...i noe his feeling..cz i drunk b4..n i do tat to him b4..i cry like shit! i miss him oso ..i feel ng seh tak oso..wat to do?we just can think our future r! don be so childish..think mature...

be ; i love u

Sunday, August 26, 2007

well~dis morning as i said yest ..got show at yuk choy primary school...ahaha~my manager said 9 am need to reach there ..but hor~ i reach at 10 am..cz i noe won be start so early ba~when reach there i find n find but ZERO cant find thm la...thn call ah fatt...yuen loi they at siu wan deng~~ realy DENG! thn i alone walk from yuk choy primary skool to there..mou meh sai~dis few day sai alot..dark alot!! omfg!! HELL YA!

after we eat thn go back there n prepare to show lu~ go to toilet...make up make up~~!! ban leng leng...take pic...thn sit inside n wait..ah fatt said we wil be do a opening ..so first song wil be dance before those kids start exam...urrhhh!! until they start exam we haven turn us to dance..WAT THE DOT was happening...thn d OC said after half hour wor~ suak!!wait more half hour...after tat turn we dance lu~!! do my best!! smile! dance! yeah! good show on first song...after first song my manager (ah fatt) said next song wil be after few min! wah!!! me n ah jie run run run to toilet..when go into toilet omg! alot ppl there..thn those auntie~ child~ using toilet..how we gona change cloth? thn ah jie said straigh change at there....those auntie seeling us change cloth -.- so paiseh la..aiks..no idea la we rushing ma aiks..thn after change cloth run back to hall..hell ya! our turn oledi..ok~BAD SHOW! lol..cz dis song yest ah xiang ( my junior) jz train 1 time d place oly...no idea lu~ even myself oso do wrong ..aiks..BAD SHOW! my sifu oso said aiks waste time come here tot can c good show geh but~~ ..make him dissoppointed..sad!!! rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..............

after 2 song we sit there they gv us burger eat,..hua!! those burger! sibeh shit..nan eat dou r..beh tahan..i jz ate few thn put down oledi..aiks...mou meh deng tak soon lol!!bout 1 pm plus thn rush back to studio ...think step cz 2 pm got class to teach aagin..RUSH!! thn think think think~my ah be call me xixi~ damm miss him la recently..aiks...cant meet him..d feeling how suffer to me wuwuwuwuw~..thn chat awhile continue my staff...student come lu..today they look so tired n lazy...no idea..i canot gv thm so lazy...thn i think jor few step to thm hahah! dance until they left half life..well~ they got energy to continue our lesson dy kekekek~ ON~ dis idea not bad...boo~! after class wou~ rush bck home faster bath thn wash face online chat with ah be heheheh....he cal me to rest wor..thn wan c me slp -.- he like to seeing me sleeping..no idea lu~ have to rest ma cz 7 pm got training again aiks...

gong dou 7 pm training realy FOH ! foh dou lei...ah fatt said ma last time we Onite comp tat song got 1 part need to change ...so tat song me ah jie n chole noe dance dy ..thn wei wei don noe ma..she have to learn lo..cz of tat she so mad...her face like mou meh song lo...aiks..her pei hei is like tat de la..thn ah fatt wan me teach her wor..i dou her like tat my mood oso spoil lan jor....don noe how to teach tim..sei mang ask her issit she ok?or else we don change song jz dance hou d old version 1..cz tat 1 we cant make it pretty ..so we have to change another 1 ma..aiyo...thn i try to explan to her noh~ hope she nderstand ..thn 830 pm she leave dy..her mood come back again lol! mou meh deng tak soon..aiks...

after tat ah fatt teach guy dance new song.. so i jz sit at there sms with my ah be.sit sit har..omg..forget today eat jor hou siu thing z...thn feeling to go back bath n slp..but wan to eat...so call my frend lu..gam ngam they cal me to yam cha..afeter bath we go out eat lu..chat awhile thn back lu~ hahaha..chit chat n blow water...always do de la me..kekeke~ so happy ~ON!!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

wah! dis morning wake up 9 am~ mou meh tired!!1 yest go clubbing until 2 am..thn cry for few hour....aiks..because of miss him noh~ thn cry so loud until my uncle oso wan to ask me wat hapen y cry hahaha!! omg~ i cry until che har somore..aiks..so san fu! after cry until so tired i sleep dy...thn in d morning wake up my eye like @@ omfg!!! damm!! bengkak la man~ boh idea..put more make up thn rush to show...aiks when reach there..they said 1030 aM start can dance oledi..but~ we 1130 am jz can start...zzzzzzzzz so late n waste our time dai lou! i 1 pm stil need to teach class r!! deng!! late dy..until 1230 tgh jz finish thn rush back fetch mei mei thn go my dad house there fetch mei mei thn rush back to studio !! mou meh far rrrrrrrrrr..gao meng!
half tank petrol pun tak da aiks~ suen~
thn teach thm until 3pm fecth thm back home ..thn change cltoh change contact thn rush back studi oAGAIN!!!! help! after tat wait my manager come.he said got somthing wna discuss with me wor...aiks..dim g...d discuss jz need few min .@@ faint dy...mou ban fat...thn wait until 7 pm stat our training CZ TOMOLO WE STIL GOT SHOW AT YUK CHOY PRIMARY skool! wat the dot~ mou meh san fu...how hopfully tat got ppl come help me on muo~
well..jz so so so tired today...so ~ anything tat i din write dou ..next day when i realy realy free sin la ahahah! nite! gambatae tomolo

Thursday, August 23, 2007

dis morning as usual went to skool...blowing water around..din even study oso ..stay at class use d lap top online...aiks..boreddddddddd....thn other class learn some html de thing..
come back home edit ler few hour frendster profile ..after tat slp =.= jz feel lazy n tired ba..cz today surpost got training at studio...but i cant even go ..NOT DARE to go oso..yest jz make her cry ( my popo) today she cal me back early n take care sister..so i choose to stay at home n tell my manager i wan to change d time...hope they get it
around 7 somthing my big cousin went to tuition d small 1 stay at home with me jz 2 ppl..she do her work i do my thing...do half ler felt sleeping..fall in slp ler..=.= aiks...around 9 somthing big sister come back ler...straigh go n scold small sister y she haven finish her job n slp at there ..SHE OSO FALL IN SLP LER???=.=
after tat i din bother ba jz keep slp at there cz lazying zzzzzz...sudenly d small siter cry loudly!! wth..i was wondering wat was happen...d big sister keep scolding d small 1...call her to do homework..but d small 1 don even wan to hear n keep crying...make me think back wat was happen between me n d big sis b4??LAST TIME
ya...my dis 2 cousin oso have a broke family like me..daddy n mommy is not around...jz grandmom tc of us from last time til nw..aiks..tats y grandmom tears so meaning for me nw...when thier family was broke ...i get d job to tc of thm...yea..dis is wat i should help my grandmom n family...tat time im realy strees...while handling 2 sister ....is jz like taking care my gal..i cant even go away..n do my thing...tat time d big sister oso like tat ..don wan to do her homework..always lazy...i check thn i scold d same thing wat she scoding d small sis nw...jz nw she jz keep scold n scold..i don like argue at home 1...im d person who stay at home is quite diam ..don like to talk much...d sound she scold..make me feel uncomfatable....shit! i cant tahan..jz scold down...peggy! can u STOP scold her?!! thn she no sound..i said U DIN THINK B4 R?!! LAST TIME U OSO LIKE HER OLY! NW U GO N SCOLD HER BACK?!! thn she said TATS Y LAST TIME IM LIKE DIS NW I DON WAN LET HER TO DO SO! n i said LAST TIME WEN I SCOLD U ..U OSO JZ NOE CRY U NOE DO OSO MEH?!!! TATS Y I SCOLD UNTIL NW SO DISSOPOINTED ANYMORE!! I DON EVEN WAN TO CHECK N SCOLD NOW LER! JZ DO BYURSELF LA! IF U NOE BE A GD GAL! she keep cry at there...
dis is jz make me remind back...when i rmb d last time i scold her...i was holding d rotan..scold infront of her..seeing her n said...if not ur mommy told me to tc u both..i nw realy lazy to tc of u both! y i til wan to waste so much time n talk alot crap here...y i don jz go n do my homework!? thn my tears was come down ...tat is d last time..i scold her ler............

dis morning popo come in n call me to fetch her go bercharm take stock...but i got study on dis morning..thn i said i cant do tat for her..she straigh scold me ..n said cal u all do thing oso many reason..always like tat..gong gong said d true..call u all fetch but don noe help...she just felt lonely..thn straigh cry out ler...aiks...feel like tat sorie to her n gong gong..whole day thinking bout tat .. we family all no 1 person can help her much..cz we got our thing to do in dairy..cant always teman her...
people is always like tat ..when a person pass away...if they r ur family..d person tat u love u care...how much pain we r..dead de ppl gone is gone..but til alive de ppl..suffering at here..keep thier live goes on...wat for we til living??
somtime when i think bout gong gon is gone...when he was sick at hispital told me...he cant dy de la..he gonna dead...rmb help popo as much as i can...don let her do too much thing..she jz like tat busy n non stop do all d thing...i always jz noe how to said at here but don noe action..somtime realy hate myself...i don even got time ...always dance..study ...dance..aiks..somtime 1 day i cant put so much time at home i oso scare...i scare no ppl teman her .she wil lonely..but whn i get home..im not feeling to go downstair..jz stay at room...onlline n online...y dis family is not tat comfortable for me???from child til now...
always been..........